Monday, June 8, 2015

Discipline

I am trying to be more disciplined.

I haven't written on this blog in awhile.

In some ways, I've been floating through my life.  But saying that is a bit of a disservice since I've been engaged in day to day adventures-- some extraordinary, some joy filled, and some adventures that bring to mind my shadow's existence.  But I haven't felt inspired to note any of the aforementioned on anything other than in the annals of recorded memory.  Of course there's a good chance that in the annals of recorded memory, I'd have a hard time extracting said memories but then  part of me believes that if I needed to, I would be able to extract what was being called upon.

I used to journal somewhat religiously.  In my possession, I have several journals filled to the brim with thoughts comprised over the years.  And, to be perfectly honest, every once in awhile, I look at the notebooks and feel I want to burn them.  Primarily because those journals were not being kept for public consumption.  They were a place for me to work through thoughts briefly housed during a specific period in time.   In fact, it was so time specific, I can't say when last i picked up an old journal just to see where I was or how far I've come since it's genesis.

I suppose that exercise would be interesting--bringing up feelings akin to those one might associate with looking through old pictures.  But I'm still not convinced that holding on to them serves a greater purpose.  And I think that is part of the reason I've been lax in keeping up with the journaling.

That being said, I feel I must continue to write and be better disciplined in the exercise of writing since the practice can only help me in my chosen profession as a writer.  And what better way to practice than to journal?  Ahh, the irony ;)