I was mostly asleep. Literally. I was lying in bed. Had been for a few hours. But I was also semi-conscious that I was thinking when, all of a sudden, I had a thought to which I remembered thinking, “No, I don’t want to think about that.” And started to push it away. But in that split second of that immediate response, I had another thought that said, “No, I should forgive it.”
It was a bit of a light bulb moment. You see, in this particular scenario, I had been thinking about habits that I engage in that I’m tempted to feel bad/conflicted about. And some part of me finally understood that perhaps the habit was part of my life experience, not to engender guilt, but forgiveness. It was such a lucid, (dare I say) “truth” that was accompanied by a sense of peace.
Sequence of events: Thought came up. Mind/Instinct/Habit began to push it away (thereby perpetuating guilt by not dealing with it). Clarity/Higher Self/Holy Spirit/Soul intervened and I was aware enough to experience an a-ha moment.
The thoughts we have, the actions we partake in that we are inclined to judge ourselves for, perhaps on some level, were chosen by us so that we could remember to forgive them. That’s beautifully freeing to me.
And why not? After all, it has been said that we, as Souls, choose our families, friends, frenemies, illnesses, etc, prior to incarnating, as growth opportunities. So why couldn’t we choose certain habits for that same purpose?
And wouldn’t forgiveness of self (which ultimately paves the way for forgiving others) and genuine unconditional love for oneself (and again ultimately making it possible to extend that to others) be the biggest Meccas of growth opportunities? The Mega Million Lottery Jackpot prize of growth opportunities?
But we don’t have to go at it alone. We can still and should still ask for help from our friends in Spirit (Mother/Father God, Angels, Guides, etc) to remember to extend and choose true forgiveness for ourselves.
I honestly believe they helped me make that connection while I was between worlds this morning. And for that I say, “Thank you dear, Friends. Every little bit of clarity, helps.”♥
Shared with the hopes that it will be of loving service.