Dear John,
Okay. Yesterday, I cried. I know it's not all about you, but you seem to be the thought my mind wandered towards in this episode I'd like to title "Water, Water, Everywhere." Everything seemed to be going "fine." I was "living" my life as per usual and then all of a sudden, out of nowhere, BOOM!: Sadness and Loss showed up and took me hostage.
Upon reflection, I am encouraged that it wasn't all tears. Somehow I was still conscious enough to verbalize that you were not the true cause of this pain. I was conscious enough to forgive, with blind faith and without being able to put a finger on it, whatever I thought was guilty in you and me. I was conscious enough to surrender our relationship to unfold in whatever way was best for all involved. I was conscious enough to ask for deeply sustaining Metaphysical aide.
When I told my best friend about this episode (it's the second time it's happened to me this week) he said I may just be grieving my perceived loss. He said it might take some time and that I should just continue to honor my feelings, release and forgive.
So, I'm writing this to honor my feelings and to be honest with myself. Intellectually, I know you have every right to make choices that you feel are in alignment/contribute to your peace and happiness. Emotionally, I haven't fully forgiven you, myself and my perception of your actions...yet.
Just wanted to set the record straight.
And because I consciously try to make decisions that are in alignment with my Higher Self, as always, may you perceive peace within you and around you (and I wish the same for me).
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