Today, on page 80 of the June 2011 edition of Essence Magazine, I read a sentence and thought of you.
“If he doesn’t call, he’s not interested. Period.”
The immediate, invisible line connecting that one sentence to thoughts of you brought up feelings of anger.
And after a while, the initial steps towards clarity.
Akin to spending a few minutes standing in a dark cave and suddenly realizing that I had a flashlight in my backpack, I chose to take charge of my situation by turning on the light. And I found that the steadier I focused the light, and focused my attention on the light’s path, the clearer I could see that which stood before me.
The temptation to be angry is there and might always be there, but just beyond that is the clarity that you had/have every right to decide whether or not you wanted to be in my life.
And because I am also a strong believer that the Universe is on my side and that everyone and everything that should be in my life will be, I can see the pool of light widening.
I am exactly where I am supposed to be, and it just so happens to be without you in my life. And that is obviously not a bad thing. After all, why have someone in one’s life that doesn’t want to be there?
Another sentence just came into my mind. I honestly think it’s a bit more light from my buddy the Universe. Funny enough, it’s from Notes from the Universe: "Whenever something doesn't work out the way you thought it would, instead of thinking that something went wrong, see it as something that went unexpectedly well, but for reasons that are not yet apparent. Everything plays to your favor."
That makes me smile.
And it’s just the right amount of clarity to help me make my way out the Cave and into the daylight.
The sun feels good on my face.
Thank goodness I’m already wearing sunscreen.
Thank you Universe!
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