I am grateful

Dear Lord, dear Angels, dear Friends, dear Universe,

I am grateful for my job. I love waking up in the mornings knowing I get to go and work here. I am over-the-moon thrilled about the wonderful people that I get to work with--people that positively challenge and inspire me creatively. People whose presence push me to be better at my craft and whose presence contribute to a healthy, fun, focused work environment. I am so grateful for this job where I make more than enough to live, more than enough to have fun and more than enough to help others. I love, love, love my job--physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually. I love, love, love the people I get to work with and grow with.

I am so happy for the wonderful place that I call my home. I love my home. I am so happy and comfortable there. I adore the beautiful, friendly neighborhood. I adore my kind, considerate neighbors. I love the tree lined streets and the gorgeous park within perfect walking distance. I am so grateful for the affordable, well stocked, healthy grocery stores also within perfect walking distance. I can't get enough of the reliable, affordable and clean transportation at my disposal . I am grateful for my Inner Spirit room within my beautiful home. I love the peace and joy I feel when I walk into my home and particularly into my quiet space. I am so grateful for the joy of life that radiates from my home. Thank you for the clarity and presence of mind to enjoy it!

Thank you for my husband. I love how articulate, honest, compassionate and passionate he is. I am grateful that in each others presence we steadily become the people we desire to be. I am grateful for the great passion and spiritual companionship in our relationship. I am grateful for his being a phenomenal husband, best friend and a wonderful father to our children. I am grateful for the joy and laughter and fun that we consistently have on a daily basis. I am grateful for the love that just radiates from within each of us. I am grateful that we truly speak our hearts to each other and encourage each other to love with open hearts and encourage each other to be more conscious in each moment. I am grateful that we both love our jobs and our lives. I am grateful for movie nights and game nights and read-a-louds and bedtime stories and trips and comfortable silences.

I am grateful for guidance in raising happy, healthy, wise, perceptive, articulate, confident, phenomenal children who are so in tune with their higher selves, that they grow into passionate, compassionate, genuinely happy adults. Thank you for helping us raise these wonderful spirits who have bigger, even more fulfilling life experiences than both of their parents combined.

I am grateful for all of this...

And I trust the Universe and my Higher Self so much that with confidence I can say:

If not this then something better:)

TEST 1, 2, 3

I am tempted to delete our facebook friendship status.

After all I currently do not feel your actions towards me (or lack thereof) are an acceptable display of friendship.

But that being said, I know--with every fiber of my being--that Future me would regard this as childish behavior and while engaging in said childish behavior, Present Me would be upset that i had let my ego get the best of me.

In the midst of all of this anger/sadness/regret, I am reminded of something from ACIM: "I do not know what anything including this means. And so I do not know how to respond to it. And I will not use my own past learnings as the light to guide me now." I am also aware that the temptation to delete you comes from my one sided perception of the situation, and that the origins of this temptation to condemn was birthed from within. I feel, or I am erroneously choosing to feel, this way and that can only mean that there is something in me that needs to be looked upon carefully, and with compassion and love and forgiveness. I must be able to forgive myself and see my innocence if I am to readily accept yours.

I can articulate that I love you and want you to be free to live as you want to live--even if that means (for whatever reason) you choose not to respond to my attempts at reaching out. And so with the intellectual clarity of the moment, until I can see more clearly (preferably from the deeply grounded vantage point of Spirit), I will repeat the ACIM quote until the temptation to condemn subsides.

"I do not know what anything including this means. And so I do not know how to respond to it. And I will not use my own past learnings as the light to guide me now."

I welcome clarity. I welcome love. I welcome freedom.