Wednesday, August 23, 2023

Laurie Anderson Story on the All There Is Podcast

On the Anderson Cooper Podcast, All There Is, in an episode released on Oct. 19, 2022, he speaks with artist and composer Laurie Anderson. In the last 5 or 6 minutes of the episode, he asks her to tell a story. It’s about an incident that occurred with her twin brothers when she was around 8 and they were about 2 years old. As the second of eight children, Laurie viewed taking care of the younger kids as part of her job, and she really loved taking care of the twins. On this particular winter’s day, she took them out in their stroller to see a movie near their home. They lived in an area and were growing up at a time when this didn’t feel out of the ordinary. They also lived near a lake that had frozen over due to the weather. On their way back home, with thoughts of pointing out something spectacular, Laurie took them over the frozen lake. And at some point in their travels, a section of the ice cracked, and the stroller carrying the twins sank into the water.


Laurie said her first thought was, "Mom’s going to kill me." With that, she took off her jacket and dove into the water. Finding one of the twins, she pulled him out and laid him on a section of ice. Jumping back into the water to find the other twin, she panicked when she couldn’t. This twin was still strapped to the stroller, which had sunk farther down than she had expected. Finally locating the stroller, she released him and got him back up above the ice. She recalled that this brother was screaming, and the other was blue. They lived about three blocks away, and she was able to get them home.


Once there, fully expecting screaming, punishment, upset, etc., she told her mom what happened. "And instead, she said, ‘You know, I didn't know you were such a great swimmer and such a good diver.’ And I… kind of froze. Because of all the things that she could have said. It literally changed my life. To be thanked for something like that. I mean, I did do my best, and she saw that actually." Laurie goes on to say that being able to see herself and be seen as a hero in the story really affected her. "I thought I─I can do things. Somebody just recognized that I can do things. And this person gave me this benefit of the doubt, you know, and it gave me so much in that one sentence. Much later, I really thought if I could ever do that for someone, I will."


When Laurie shared her mother's reaction, I remember going very still. She had been able to choose that particular response at that particular moment. I found myself wondering what it would take for me to be able to respond in the same way.


In the space of a few seconds or minutes, I’d have to remember that Laurie was a child—8 years old. I’d have to remember that she didn’t set out to hurt her little brothers. I’d have to remember seeing her prior interactions with the twins and witnessing the love in those interactions. I’d have to imagine how freaked out I would be to see the ice crack and a stroller with two kids in it disappear into the frigid waters beneath. I’d have to remember that an 8-year-old saw this and acted quickly to try to save her siblings. I’d have to remember that she succeeded. I'd have to remember that everyone made it home.


Whatever made it possible for her mother to connect to and make that response, it was/it is, to my mind, the most amazing, conscious, and loving response.


Love took the lead here where fear could have easily dominated.

  

Tuesday, August 1, 2023

Cheering. You. On. Pep Talk

 It’s never too late to take steps towards resetting. Never.

Cry if you have to (ain’t no shame, that tension needs an outlet for release), throw rolled up socks (but not at any living thing though, maybe at a wall or your bed), watch vids that contribute to the uplifting of your spirit (I’ve been watching a lot of The Voice and The Voice kids compilations from different countries, people's talents leave me in awe), re-read something that sparks your joy, turn up some music and dance, meditate (when I'm having problems with connecting to silence, I use mantras), stand outside in the sun for as long as you are able and just breathe, make a paper airplane or a paper boat and decorate it (you can relearn how to do it by searching online ), journal (or with the intention of getting it out of your system, pour all that tension onto a sheet or several sheets of paper and then *safely* burn it. Seriously, I can’t over emphasize the word, safely. I’m still always surprised at how quickly those flames grow and spread ).

And then, take steps to cheer yourself on. And mean it. Stuff gets hard.

Acknowledge the hard. Feel what you feel. And as soon as you’re able, take steps to gently move back to an inner equilibrium.

You’re worth all of your loving efforts. All. Of. It. Cheering. You. On.